Let me begin and end the blog with the same question –
Before we begin, I am sorry. I have had absolutely no time over the last week to write. I would fully blame myself for this – I was being unbelievably lazy and all I did was go to school, work out, come home to Netflix. The physical and mental exhaustion takes over you and you are left doing nothing when you are free. I found this interesting picture on Tumblr and couldn’t help but share it here! This is pretty much my life right now!
Here I am, writing on Monday morning 20 minutes before my class. This is what college does to you!
Back to the blog – I am currently sharing an apartment with two other people. My previous roommates graduated and moved out and I am still getting used to the new ones. So yesterday, we finally started talking while cleaning the kitchen. I found out a lot about my new roommates and I must say, they are both very interesting people.
One of my roommates is an agri-business major – coming from a country that has a majority of engineers and doctors, her choice of profession intrigued me. That was when she told me that everyone in her family (all of them are Indians, mind you) chose the “non-engineering” path. Her sister is studying English literature and most of her cousins are in varied fields of arts. I was particularly interested in one cousin of hers who is an amazing painter and a model. She was showing me a lot of pictures of her and that had me evaluate my entire life (we all have such days!).
At the age of 32, my roommate’s cousin is a self-made woman – she lives on her own in the beautiful city of Pondicherry – a city in India that is equivalent to New Orleans in the US (French colonies and all that). She has refused to get married till she finds “the one”. She attends a lot of art conferences all over the world and in short, lives life to the fullest. Her best friend is into pottery and that’s how she makes a livelihood.
Here’s a picture of Pondicherry – it is one of my favorite cities in India!
When I hear or see the lives of people who chose the path less trodden, I suddenly feel bad about my choices. I do enjoy being an engineer, but this was a safe bet. Everything has always been about stability and having something to “fall back on”. There have always been Plan B’s and Plan C’s. I often wonder, if by being so careful about everything, have I lost out on the various opportunities to discover more about myself.
Anyways, after yesterday, I have decided to not let my mind be clouded by always playing safe. It will be difficult to get out of this groove that I have comfortably sat myself in, but I will be starting soon. I need to go out there and do things that scare me. We all do. Everyone who is too scared to move out of their comfort zone – take the leap. Get rid of the shackles. The world has so much to offer – you cannot see all of it if you are working behind a computer screen for 80 hours a week.
Kudos to those women and men, who are sticking to their guns and living the life that many are afraid to even dream of.
Now, think back and tell me –